In a recent hour-long video titled “The Fall of True Geordie”, the UK YouTuber and podcaster Brian “True Geordie” Davis opened up about his suicidal thoughts post the controversy surrounding his leaked personal messages with women.
“It was like a nightmare. An actual nightmare. Seeing so many tweets of hate towards me, just pouring in by the thousands. The enjoyment that people got out of destroying me was clear as day,” said the YouTuber.
Back in early 2019, Davis was on a steady path to internet stardom in the realm of YouTube and podcasting. He has interviewed several big names including Tyson Fury, Logan Paul, and more. However, around August last year, a slew of personal messages of Davis with several women containing sexually explicit content were leaked online.
In an interview with Laurence McKenna, Davis dived into the various aspects surrounding his controversy and the backlash he received. Continuing on the subject of hateful messages, Davis revealed that he was appalled by the fact that people weren't simply ridiculing him, but were being outright spiteful.
“It wasn't that they were trying to make jokes. They were trying to end me. ‘You are canceled.' ‘We f**king hate you.' The thing that shocked me more than anything was the hate.”
Furthermore, Davis opened up about how he felt suicidal and was deeply moved by the whole fiasco. The UK-based YouTuber said that he was aiming to not “kill himself” and that he was binge drinking quite often.
“I'm back here. I'm back feeling suicidal again… I drunk more than I've ever drunk in my life. I was thinking about methods of suicide. I was looking at banisters wondering if it could take my weight. Do I want to live in a world where this many people hate me? I'm ready to get off now.”
The dark account of Davis and the hate messages surrounding his personal life events highlight the perils of cancel culture and how online personalities fall prey to it. Finally, Davis admitted that he knew he had to face the issue head-on instead of denying it.
“I'm a strong person. I dealt with suicide. I've dealt with people trying to take my life. But the wave of hate passed through all of my protection. I couldn't ignore it. I couldn't not feel it. It went straight through my skin and into my heart. Everyone hates me, and that was what shocked me,” said Davis.